Be Still and Know that I Am God–After the Heartbreak

It has been a bumpy ride for most of us who have been called by God to be His children in these last days.  Most of us have been a part of a church, fellowship, or Christian organization that did not end well.

On our trek to the Celestial City, we stop at way stations until sometimes we are forced to move on to our next ordained experience.  Through much anguish and tears we often leave the fellowship of Christian brethren.  So many congregations have split and fractured, along with our own hearts, and we are left wondering why.

Why, God?

Why, God?  Why did it end the way it did?  Disillusioned and hurt some thirty years ago, my family and I stumbled into the next phase of our life.  I could not understand how the Christian brother that had helped me find Christ and His deliverance from drug addition was the one who ran me off fourteen years later.  My world was shattered and torn, and I wandered aimlessly, listlessly, not seeking succor from God at all.

After five years in which my wife Linda and I finished our Bachelor degrees and teaching certificates (for we knew we were called to be teachers), a kind of a spiritual renewal of sorts began in my heart.

Any of us who have gone through a rocky spiritual transition have horror stories, and I wince for all who endure these disillusioning changes.  God is not forgetful, however, of our sufferings; He knows that betrayal by those you love is the sharpest knife.  Of course, few of us know at the time that “all things are of God”—even the betrayal of His loved ones, us.

And yet our initial question persists: Why, God, did it have to end?  Five years after the breakup, I started to get an answer to this question.  It is God and what He’s doing in the earth, and it has not ended.

For me, that initial phase of spiritual boot camp had ended, but God was not through.  Then, as a babe in Christ, I needed a drill instructor to prod and push me to serve God the way they thought He should be served.

No, His love for us was not expended.  That good thing that He started in us all shall be performed with His help.  He’s not finished; us trying to serve Him by constraint is.

Maybe that’s why it took me five years to start to put some things together.  No one was prodding me anymore to seek God.  The mentor, tutor and governor was gone.  The words of the old song came to mind: “You gotta walk that lonesome valley.  You gotta walk it by yourself.  Nobody else can walk it for you.  You gotta walk it by yourself” [chorus of “The Reverend Mr. Black” sung by the Kingston Trio].

It was up to me and God.  Only now it was better because of the knowledge base we had been taught.  And I was taught among many things, these two things:  “If it is a plan of men, it will come to naught.”  And, “Prove all things.”  Don’t take anyone’s word for it.  Prove it out in the word with two or three witnesses.

It had been five years of wandering (at least it wasn’t forty), and it was now time to reprove everything.  I had to find out what went wrong at the “mission,” that way station that we served in for fourteen years as everyday missionaries during half of our twenties and most of our thirties.

So where does one start to pick up the spiritual pieces and examine every one of those pieces?  I decided to begin my meditations at the beginning: God, His plan, and His purpose.

Be Still and Know that I Am God

That very winter night in January 1990 I laid out under the stars and marveled at Orion and Cassiopeia and the Little Dipper and witnessed the evening star bright in the west.  And realized that every star was just where it was five years ago.  They had all hung there like dazzling pinpoint paintings on the walls of heaven, immutable, constant, symbols of God Himself.

And my dog Zack, my faithful “chopped ’57 German Shepherd,” was there, seeing only me.  He couldn’t appreciate and take in the stars in all their orderly glory.  It wasn’t for him to know anything about the heavenly realms and who created them.  That was my domain.  His was to know and love me, and he was content to accompany me into the field and lay with me in the grass while I mused about the Creator and His creation.

And it was then that I realized the very special place in the creation that man has—the thing about us that makes us so special above all other beings on the face of the earth: man is the only creature specifically made to not only appreciate God, but also be like Him.  I had known that, but hadn’t thought about it in years.

The utter simplicity of it.  Lay down, look up, be still and know that I am God.  Do not corrupt the simplicity of Christ.

The simplicity.  “God is a Spirit,” and “that which is born of the Spirit is spirit.”

And there I had found my starting point in reproving the teachings and doctrine of Christ.  I would no longer blindly take the word of someone without proving it out first.  His word speaks of a time that you would have no need that a man teach you, for the Spirit of truth shall be with you and dwell in you.

God is an invisible Spirit of love and those born out of this spiritual essence are spirit.  I would now study the scriptures with no preconceived dogma, doctrine, or ideas.  I would study it much like I did as an English major–reading the literary works as they are and telling it like it is without prejudice or preconceptions.  I would dig deep and build it on the Rock, looking unto the eternal things and not the physical, temporary things.  The quest in earnest had begun.

First Step in Becoming a Son or Daughter of God

A seeker once asked the Seer, “How do you get into the family of God?  I see what you mean about respecting God’s awesome power and sovereignty.  At least a little.  But what do I have to do in order to get involved in this sonship the Bible keeps on talking about?”

“The first thing is to feel in you inner being, in your heart, that you need to change.  Unless  a person admits that he is not living right before this awesome Creator God, that person cannot get closer to God.  God has a written law, handed down by the Son of God himself to the prophet Moses.  It is called the Ten Commandments.  It was in effect from the creation of man and woman.  It was in the Garden of Eden with Adam and Eve.  They are called the commandments of righteousness.  And everyone has broken them.

“God laid down the law: You shall have no other gods before me [especially ourselves].  You shall not make for yourself a graven image and bow down to it and serve it.  You shall not lift up the name of God [Yahweh] falsely.  Remember the Sabbath day, to keep it holy.  Honor your father and mother.  You shall not murder, nor commit adultery, nor steal.  You shall not bear false witness against your neighbor.  You shall not covet or desire for yourself anything that belongs to your neighbor.

“Those are the commandments as found in Exodus 20.  Mankind, led by their old nature, breaks them.  Many people who claim to know the Bible say that the law was done away with.  But the Savior Jesus (Yahshua) said in Matthew 5: 17, ‘Think not that I have come to abolish the law and the prophets.  I have come…to fulfill them.’

“And the way He fulfills the law is giving us His Spirit.  But this only comes after we identify our old sinful self on the cross with the dying Savior, and let our old sinning heart die with Christ.  This is repentance from sin.  Then we must believe that when Christ resurrected from the grave, we, too, were raised from the dead–to walk now in a sinless existence–through belief that His Spirit is now leading and guiding us in this new life in Christ.  This is faith toward God, the second of the apostles’ doctrines.

“And it is with these two extremely important and fundamental truths that a new son or daughter of God is born–born of the Spirit.  But a person must have a need.  God knows His own; He is aware who is written in the book of life, and He will help them and favor them (grace) and lead them into these truths.

“But this is only the first step in the growth to becoming His son or daughter.  For this is the foundation that must be built upon with more of His truth and Spirit.  For never forget this one thing: Salvation is just the first step in God’s growth cycle.  He wants us to mature into full grown fruit-bearing capability as His ruling cadre in His kingdom during the 1,000 year reign!  Go and learn what that means.  Seek God for it.  Study, dig deep, for the kingdom’s treasures are much greater that gold and precious diamonds and jewels.

“Ask Him to send a true teacher who will help you get started.  And then, as you get stronger and more mature, you will have no need that any man should teach you, for you will have the Comforter, the Spirit of truth, leading you into all truth” (John 14: 16-26).

On Fasting–Conversations with the Seer

The Seer was speaking unto us about fasting.

“Right now you are basking in the light of Christ’s words flowing through the one who He has sent to call out and instruct a people for His name. And that is well and good and is as it should be.  As Christ said unto His followers, The time will come when I will be taken from your midst; then you shall fast.”

“Why didn’t His disciples fast like John the Baptist and his disciples?” one of the brothers asked.

The Seer replied, “That is a very good question. The answer is instructive as to why fasting is even on God’s docket at all.  As long as the Master Teacher is personally with you, you do not feel a need to fast, Christ was saying.  But when He is gone and no longer is physically there to hand feed you the milk and meat of the Word, then the need to fast will become apparent.  This should reveal to us how God uses fasting in our lives. For fasting is reserved for that time that will come for the elect.”

“What time are you talking about?” I asked.

“There is coming a time in all of your lives in God when I will no longer be here with you, serving as your teacher and guide. There is coming a time when you all sitting here will be dispersed to the four winds for one reason or another, and you will look out the window at the leafless trees and the brown grass and the grey sky, and you will remember this day when I told you about fasting.

“For, you see, fasting is not necessary in God’s plan when His teachings are fed to you by another. It is when you are alone and hungry for God’s truth, and you turn around and finally realize that there is no other human being to take your hand and comfort you and feed you in your lonely hunger. You realize that you will have to seek the Spirit within you for sustenance found only in the spiritual bread of truth. Then you will fast, successfully and meaningfully fast, and not before.”

“We fasted a very long fast two months ago,” another brother said.

“Yes, you all did, and God is not forgetful and appreciates your intent to join me in the fasting I must undertake. But the real reason to fast hinges on doing it not as just the thing to do. But rather we are to fast for specific reasons. The prophet Isaiah expounded on it in the 58th chapter where the Spirit through him tells his readers and listeners that the fast that God has ordained is one to accomplish His purposes in the earth. And that includes helping to deliver His people from the clutches of the evil world system that still has them in bondage. This is the only food that will sustain His sons and daughters. Being a part of His magnificent plan to ‘loose the bands of wickedness, to undo the heavy burdens, and to let the oppressed go free, and that you break every yoke.’”

“Who are the oppressed that need to go free?” someone asked.

“The fast that God has chosen is to do these things. Like Daniel in the ninth chapter when he prayed ‘with fasting and sackcloth and ashes.’ He was confessing the sins of God’s people, how they had failed Him, and how they had fallen into great bondage under the heavy yoke of the Babylonians and were in slavery to them, carried down into Babylonia, and how they had lost their homes and were completely desolate. Read all of that chapter and you will see Isaiah 58 in it.

“Daniel was laying it all out for God’s sake. Nothing was in it for himself. He finally could only ask God for His mercy to come for one reason: ‘for thine own sake and for thy city and thy people are called by thy name.’  Do you see? Daniel fasted and prayed, yes, for the people, but the people did not earn or deserved to be delivered and saved. Daniel honored his Creator God and asked God to deliver them for God’s own sake! That is the kind of heart that God wants in his sons and daughters! A heart that loves Him!

“And that is the kind of fast that Yahweh has chosen for us His sons. We should fast with His will in mind, and His will is His plan and purpose to deliver those in bondage. And this is what should be in our minds, to have the mind of Christ, which was, Not my will but thine be done, Father.

“It is this type of supplication that God will hear. This is the coming together of love of God and love of your neighbor. We are loving God when we pray and fast for our people–that they would be delivered from the slavery to sin and sinning. That they would be free from this devilish economic system based on debt, ruled by the rich men and bankers. That they would be delivered from hopelessness and despair and superstition and pervasive darkness.

“For make no mistake. The current inhabitants of the world are in the chains of darkness of the god of this world. They are enslaved in a faithless sunken pool of quicksand that is slowly taking them under. Their institutions have failed them and have even furthered their demise.  Those dark days are here now. For BABYLON THE GREAT, the world system, has the people in its clutches, and it is strangling them.

“And you young men, perhaps many years hence, will peer out your window at some grey horizon, and you will remember these words about fasting.  And the meaning of it will dawn upon you.  And you will bring that burden for those lost in darkness into your spirit, and you will wish you had your teacher there again to help you to know just what to do next.

“At that time, remember that your teacher is still  there with you. For He is the same Spirit that has taught you through me.  He is the Comforter, the Holy Spirit within your very heart, and He will bring all things back to your remembrance. Even to the point that you will no longer need a man to teach you, for you will have the Spirit of truth to teach you and guide you and help you.   Then you shall fast, even as Christ said we all would. And then you will pray for the oppressed as Daniel did.

“And to confirm that what happened to Daniel flies on down through the centuries and has relevance for us today, consider this.  At the end of  Daniel’s fasting and prayer and supplication, Gabriel, the arch-angel appeared to him and expounded many secrets of the coming of the kingdom of God to this earth, even foreseeing the crucifixion of Christ and the coming of Christ’s counterfeit, the Anti-Christ, the man of sin, which is for our day.”     KWH

A Lesson in Wisdom

Who is that one person that you love so much that you would give all your assets and possessions, even your own soul, so that they could live on for ever and never have to taste death, never have to lie there cold and ashen, prepared for burial?

We all have someone, surely, that we would give everything to redeem them from the inevitable decay that awaits them in the belly of the earth.

But we cannot make them live on for ever.  We do not possess the power to save them.  They will die; the graveyards are full of people that someone loved dearly yet could not prevent their demise.

I remember the scene at the graveyard.  Most of the mourners had left.  Hugging the casket of the 20 year old young man was his grandfather, sobbing and moaning, “But I loved him.  My darling boy.  But I loved him!”  And in that instant I knew that he would have given his very own life in exchange for his grandson’s.  But he could not.

We mortal human beings cannot redeem, for any price, someone that we love.  Our riches cannot be brought and given to God as a ransom paid in order to purchase the life of our loved one and thus prevent them from dying.

It is only God Almighty, the Giver of life to our loved one, who will take back that life at a certain time.  We are not in control of life or death.  God is, and He will take our lives back to Himself. And there is nothing we can do to alter this fact.  Rooms full of gold cannot purchase a ticket out of death.

And God has ordained this so, as a lesson for us to learn, a lesson to teach us wisdom and understanding, a lesson for all people in the world, rich and poor and high and low.  The lesson lies in us facing up to this truth: that God is sovereign and in complete control of our scheduled descent into the dusty tomb of the earth.

As we contemplate this, it is God’s hope that we distill drops of sorely needed wisdom, which is the “fear of the LORD (Yahweh).”  Wisdom is being in reverential awe of this God, who is in control, who has given us a short time in these earthly bodies to learn of Him and His love, who will someday soon take the spark of His spirit back, and our fragile shells will fall to the ground, taking nothing with them, no matter how richly arrayed they once were.

Wisdom is being in awe of Him.  And understanding is “to depart from evil.”  He hopes that these thoughts will awaken His people to His saving power, for He is the only power in the universe that can and has trumped death.

And when we realize all this, that He has already paid the price for our resurrection, then this meditation on our weakness and His power over death will have done its job on us.  For the above is the lesson found in Psalm 49.  Read it all again.  It is addressed to you, to all of us.  “Hear this, all peoples; give ear, all inhabitants of the world…my mouth shall speak wisdom.”      Kenneth Wayne Hancock